And this would be the crazy part

Tomorrow is my pregnancy test, we're now into the nervous/crazy part of the process.  The rather drunk/disorienting feelings from prometrium are starting to wane so I think I can put a few thoughts together.  Maybe.

• Nipples look promising.
• Some brown discharge yesterday.  This terrifies me, but I know old blood isn't what an embryo wants anyhow, it's not a bad thing.
• Still makes me a little bat shit crazy.
• Prometrium is killing me, the second day of going to work past 10am because I can't drive like this.
• Got home from work yesterday and fell into a very deep sleep from 6-7.  If my bowling friend didn't come by to walk at 7, I'm not sure when I would have woken up.
• We didn't go for a walk, I wasn't up to it.
• All of the prescriptions are designed for the last dose to be today, but the pregnancy test is tomorrow and I take the vast majority (9 pills, one injection) in the morning.  So I got some refills yesterday.
• I think I am going to pass tomorrow but I'm totally getting nervous about the sticking factor.
• Just a reminder, the test tomorrow is important, I have to pass for this to go on, but seeing the HCG levels double on Friday means more to me.
• My uterus feels heavy.
• I slept for 7.5 hours last night, it's only 2.5 hours since I woke up and I could sleep again.
• I might have to go back to the itchy skin with Endometrin.  This dizzy/sleepy/drunk feeling is harder to work around than it was in the past. 
• My parents went by my SIL's parents house yesterday.  Two houses have been demolished (the gap towards the photographer), this is what is left of their house.

• I'm still processing it.  It is surreal. 
• Workmen were coming and going, so what is left must be structurally sound. 

All right.  I think I'm up for going to work.  Thank you all for being a good outlet, right about now I just need a place to put all the scary thoughts so I can focus on other things.  Just do me a favour and check your smoke detectors.