Tuesday, June 5

Not so good

I wish I had some encouraging news today.  I won't be in for tests until tomorrow, but the cramps are coming back.  I woke up to some red blood, and I've felt okay this morning but since about noon or so the cramps have been slowly building and getting rather painful.  Not a good sign when I am not even coming up to the next dose of prometrium. 

I feel kind of numb and okay with this.  You all know how much I want this to work, but I also know how much worse the pain (both emotionally and physically) is as it drags out.  I feel a bit fatalistic.  This will be what it will be and I'm not saying I'm happy but I can't control it either.  The analytical side of my brain knows all the facts and is well aware of what's going on while we still rub my belly good morning and good night and talk about what the baby likes (ice cream) and what the baby did not like (flavoured tuna).  We also tell it to study hard for each test.

My employers are being really supportive.  I'm working from home today and tomorrow, we'll take things day by day.  With the cramps increasing, I will be less productive this afternoon but at least this isn't another personal day.  I'm only suppose to have 7 in a year, pretty sure I'm over that now and it's not even midway through the year. 

So while I sit and let myself be pampered, I have been picking away at crochet.  I decided my first four edged project (to call it a rectangle is an insult to all straight edges out there) was big enough to be a functional dish cloth so I tied that off.  It is warped and horrible with dropped stitches galore, but I kinda like it for that. 

I started a second "rectangle of learning".  It starts with a bit of single crochet and then some half-double crochet and double crochet.  I think I'm catching onto the pattern of the stitches although I still look ahead at the actual pattern pictures and don't get it.  I must say it passes time and while I do need to pay attention to what I'm doing, it lets me get into a zone of not thinking about other things.  I took a picture but I don't know where the little card reader is so it's going to have to wait until Mr. Lina is home.

Also, have any of you read Pride and Prejudice?  I'm oh.. more than half way through (Mr. Darcy just got shot down by Elizabeth, I wouldn't have seen that proposal coming either) and enjoying it so far.  I think I'd like to see one of the movie adaptations once I have finished it.  I have to say it's been a while since I read something that had older English.  I used to be more game for stuff like this but half the time I'm reading because I'm tired and want to zone out rather than pick apart the nuances of older language structure. 


  1. When you watch P & P on dvd, make sure to watch the BBC adaptation with Colin Firth and Jennifer Ehle. It is an excellent version, and I love it so much I wore out a VHS version. It is true to the book. It is 6 hours long and wonderful. I usually watch it (nowadays) a couple of times a year. I saw the BBC adaptation before reading the book, and it prepped me for reading the book, I now find the language super easy to follow.

    The recent movie version, I must admit I haven't seen, mostly because all the clips they showed while promoting the movie were not accurate to the book and not even close to the real Austen era. I don't know one person who saw it that is a real Austen fan who actually liked it.

    Take care of yourself.

    1. You know I haven't see a single version but just based on people talking about that BBC version, my mental image of Mr. Darcy is of Colin Firth. Thanks for the details on it being a miniseries, I would have looked for a movie.

      Language wise, once I'm in I'm good. It's just getting into the first couple of chapters that can be pretty grating when you don't know the characters either.

  2. I continue to hold you in my thoughts.

    1. Hugs!

      I read P&P last year sometime for the first time... enjoyed it quite a bit, although it did take a bit of getting used to the language. Haven't seen any of the movies, though.

      And, hugs.

  3. Sending hugs and all good thoughts.

  4. More hugs coming your way from down here.... I have read Pride and Prejudice at least 4 or 5 times since it was required in high school. The language gets easier as the book goes on, or maybe you just get used to it...I'm not sure which. I recommend reading Pride and Prejudice and Zombies after this, which puts a fun spin on the whole book, but I have not seen any movie adaptations I like. I find the miniseries dull, but then again the only Colin Firth movie I've ever drooled over is The Importance of Being Earnest. That was the movie that made me say, "OH! I see what all the fuss is about!" HAH.

    I also may be prejudiced because I can't stand the character of Mr. Darcy and would have thrown a vase at his head. If I were Lizzie, that is, which I am clearly NOT.

    1. I guess with any literature (vs a light and fluffy romance novel or mystery) I want to put more thought into it because I expect to get more out of the book. Even where the language is easy to read, I still want it to be thought provoking - like the space opera you were reviewing. I think with language, I'm fine once I'm in but those first few chapters are a struggle to just get there.

      Mr Darcy does seem to need to lighten up a bit, eh? They both have moments where I don't understand their decision making - or at least it's not what I would do. Mind you, I'm not as likely to spout off like Lizzie.


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