Tuesday, April 23

Here we go...

Are you guys ready for a ride?  We're about to set off on my last FET cycle.  I was one day away from taking a pregnancy test (while highly unlikely, it's not impossible for me to get pregnant naturally) but it seems Day 1 is here.  All those hormone issues were just PMS.  This period seems to be making up for being MIA since I don't know, Christmas?  I've had spotting a couple of times but right no real clear Day 1 in quite some time.  My uterus is taking revenge today.

This will be the second FET that I've blogged and I'm planning on sharing the process again.  It's a good outlet for me.  I think I've tagged all the FET cycle posts  from last year if you weren't reading at the time and would like to look back.  After meeting with my doctor I posted the "game plan" here.  I believe the only change will be the addition of Humira, an immune suppressing drug typically used by people with things like rhumatoid arthritis or Crohn's.  I posted about being a little uneasy about taking it in November.  I have a friend who used it recently and it's made me feel more comfortable to take it. 

Procedures have changed significantly it seems with the clinic.  I like working within procedure (I assume they set them up for a reason) but I feel frustrated when I don't know what is "right".  As an example, I phoned to book my Day 3 appointment to find out my nurse coordinator needs to requisition the appointment.  I guess it's suppose to make it easier on me (and them to keep track) to have one point of contact but I'm used to calling for these things myself.  On the plus side, the receptionist knows me well enough to rhyme off my birth date without having to hear my name a second time and sent a note to my nurse on my behalf.

It's moments like this that I feel good and bad.  Good to have staff that know me.  Sad that I've been there long enough for them to know me that well.

The start of my last FET has some mixed feelings.  First off, these cramps really hurt and I wasn't really expecting Day 1 today, so that is clouding my ability to think.  Day 1 is also sad because it means I didn't need a pregnancy test.  But... I am happy to get the ball rolling on this cycle.  It's exciting to try again.  I can also feel the "enough already" frustration with the clinic, signs that I'm done with this path. 

I have 2 voice mails (and now an email) asking if I've taken Humira yet, which I haven't, no one told me what day to take it so I haven't.  This is all so carefully choreographed I don't take anything I'm not told to do.  I don't even have the prescription filled.  So far as I knew, Humira does not have to be timed with ovulation/cycle days, it is the first domino in this FET.  But, I was under the impression my first dose will be mid-cycle.  Given that my period could arrive any day, it didn't seem to me like a good time to start it.  Now that it's here, I called because that's what my introduction paperwork said to do, but that is at home and I am at work so I can't double check but I remember questioning that box being ticked in the "to do" column.  And of course, today I left my phone in my coat pocket at home so I'm playing telephone tag with the nurse and it's after 3pm so they are likely leaving the office (their day starts around 5:30 or 6am).  Argh.

Believe me this will be much more interesting in June.

9 comments:

  1. I hate it when administrative stupidity controls my day (in an anxiety provoking way). I'm looking forward to watching the next cycle. Giving you optimistic thoughts. Whatever happens will happen and you will manage it just as it should be.

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    1. I am glad to hear you're interested in reading about the next cycle. I write for me but it's nice to have an interested audience.

      "Whatever happens will happen and you will manage it just as it should be." - That is exactly right, I don't always express that well (it's taken more pessimistic than I intend).

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  2. Wishing you all the best.

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    1. I'll take all the good wishes I can. Thank you.

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  3. One tight hug!! I was just about to reply the email, and saw your post pop up on the blogroll..

    Not sure if you know this quote, but every time I see your name 'Sera', this quote pops into my mind... Que Sera, Sera! Whatever happens, happens. Lot of things are not under our control.

    Good luck! I'm keeping all crossables crossed for you.

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    1. That had not crossed my mind at all but it's perfect. Absolutely perfect. Thanks!

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  4. Good luck, keeping fingers crossed for you (and toes too!)

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