You may remember that both of my brothers somehow had partners with synchronized ovulation and ended up with due dates one day apart - April 4th and 5th. How that happens when they live literally 4,500 km (give or take depending on your route) apart, I'm not sure but it did.
Clone (the youngest of us) arrived in time to have a few days with his wife and my niece before my nephew arrived on Saturday, April 5th. Both my nephew and my SIL are doing really well, I gather he's a pretty hungry baby and feeding well. With my cough and congestion, I'm not in a rush to meet him, but he is adorable.
|Skin time with his dad.|
I'm not quite sure how I'm feeling about all of this. Being sick is (again) giving me a reason to not join the family fray trying to meet the babies. I would not wish 2 plus weeks of congestion onto the babies nor the new parents, it's best to keep my distance a little while longer. While true, I think it also gives me a level of plausible deniability.
I love babies. I want to hold my nephew (and soon to arrive nephew) so much but there is a cost to holding babies. I know it's going to make me cry, heck just writing that is making me leaky. I can't do it when lots of people are around and right now, it seems like it is parent and grandparent time more than aunt time. I really can't do it with my brothers in laws around. Being sick is a good reason not to go right now but really, it's an excuse for something I'd be avoiding anyhow.
Soon, but not quite yet. That feels more honest and I have to be honest with myself about this so I can put on the brave face and lie when I have to.