One odd thing the home inspection pointed out is that there isn't a heat vent into my sewing room. It wouldn't be hard to add one because the furnace is on the other side of the wall. I am not all that concerned. I can leave the door open (there is a vent just outside the room) for air to circulate and once the iron is turned on, the room will warm up enough. How often have I ended up sewing nearly naked with my hair pulled up because I was too hot?
Lately I am quick to tear up and terribly forgetful (like not taking sleeping bags, pillows, chairs or Mr.Lina's camera with us for Summerfolk). Some of it is probably because this is a lot of change all at once. Some of it is because I'm tired. I didn't realize we would be buying a car and house when we got tickets for the Argo game and our usual Summerfolk weekend. Some of the tears make complete sense, but it's still flowing a little easier than it should.
|Small picture hides the slightly puffy eyes.|
It crossed my mind as my eyes were welling up and spilling over about how hard any change is and that this is a moment to remember when I adopt. When I am matched with my kids, it's going to be such a happy event for Mr. Lina and I. But it's not quite the same happy event for the kids, it's just one more change in a life of uncertainty. I don't think they are going to believe us (or the social workers) when we say it is their forever home, that kind of trust and attachment takes time. The happy part of being told they will live with us will likely be a suspicious happy. It is okay to be sad about the good byes, good even. If I'm confused enough to have tears and complicated feelings over a car, imagine how hard that turmoil is to express when you are 6, or 4 or 2. I'm not sure there is enough crayons out there to express and explore those complicated feelings - where to put the sad part while everyone around you seems to be so very happy and appear to expect you to be happy too.
Now for more change. It's time to do the last bit of work to list our house.